Monday, December 16, 2013

"威胁"?

只想晚上让双方都可以甜甜地去睡觉

如果你觉得  好好地跟我说声晚安 我这个要求是一种威胁的话
你大可以不必再继续下去这一切
何必让自己受苦忍耐

每晚sweet一点道别
毎早sweet一点开始新的一天
觉得是一种负担?

很明显有问题了吧


我比较爱浪漫
你偏偏觉得没必要

你比较喜欢‘情调’
我偏偏觉得多余

哦噢  怎么办?


想不通我怎么威胁到你了
我做我想做的  你也是可以做你想做的啊
我又没逼你
问题就在   你根本不知道你想做什么吗


长一些吧   做回有梦想有远见的人
连自己都不懂自己要做什么
你要别人怎么靠你啊


是时候为自己的未来打算了吧
年轻就是来闯的  趁自己还有本钱尝试失败
这样未来才可以成功啊


怕失败的人  最难前进。

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Can't stand...

I can't stand how you can't see anything good of me unless when you have use of me
I can't stand how you will always lower my self-confidence
I can't stand how you will always except me to praise you, but you won't do the same to me
I can't stand how you will always pick all my faults and criticize me
I can't stand how when you can't make a decision, I make it instead but you will criticize it
I can't stand how when you are to be blamed, you become displeased and make things look like others are at fault
I can't stand how when we're in an argument, I try so hard to make things normal but you will just be uncooperative and still show your "black mood" face
I can't stand how you can only see the faults in others but not in yourself


You are not perfect
You have no concept of time
You are bad-tempered
You are not always right
You are vain
You are full of criticism


and I feel that I am trapped and have no freedom when I'm with you
and I feel that everything I do, you don't approve of
and I feel stupid and unsure when I'm with you
and I feel belittled by you
and I feel that I can't do things I like because I always have to accommodate you

...and I don't think I can stand you any longer if you continue to be like this.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

很好

我把决定权让给你时   你说我没主见
当在某样事情我有自己的想法 自己一定的决定   你说我固执

我把决定权让给你   是因为那样事情对我来说不大重要   我比较喜欢你做出你喜欢的决定
结果呢?  给你说我没主见   什么事都随随便便

我自己决定某样事时   你不认同
我坚持   你说我固执

你也不是固执的吗?   硬要我跟你想得那样去做
有些事   你坚持   我就服从了
有些事   对我来说特别重要   我坚持我的决定   你就不爽  没mood
体谅是什么?

我想趁我还有能力时去拚
而且是我人生中第一个重要的project
足够影响我的未来
我只是想花多一点时间做出一个可以让我自己应以为傲的结果
让我不会留下任何遗憾的结果
我选择不去旅行玩耍
这有错?

我不是机器人
我也懂得要享受人生
但是我很确实知道
不是现在
因为我要做我这个 对我来说 异常重要的fyp

我希望的   只是你的理解
我甚至不妨碍你享受你的sem break
只是你自己选择不享受  在那里闹脾气罢了
别又把那罪盖在我头上

Thursday, December 20, 2012

i'm crying and you don't know it.
why are you ashamed to let people know you're webcam-ing with me?

i said i wanna see you, and that's all you do-let me see you.
you can't even type something and chat with me.
i can just look at your face.
i even doubt you are looking at me, although the webcam is on.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

确定?

你怎么那么确定你总是对的、我是错的?
你怎么老是在想要一些东西时  找些借口说得好象你是真的对的、真的为我好,然后让自己得逞?
我总是在想,你其实有意识到自己是这样的吗?
如果有,那就是你明明知道了还造做了?
如果有,那就是你在自私  连对自己的重要的人也一样自私了?

你怎么总把事情想得那么复杂?
明明没有那个意思  你却认为有
明明就简单的几句话  你却认为话中有话、另有其意?

你的思想方式和我不一样
我觉得没有这样的东西  你认为我笨、单纯
为什么你就不会认为是你自己想多了呢?
为什么你会认为自己的想法100%正确呢?
为什么那么确定呢?

难道就没有保留着 自己可能错了的 这种想法?
世界上  有什么东西是100%可以确定的呢?

保持主观  认为什么事都有可能不如其面
认为确定一样东西前  有了证据才更能被肯定
或许对我这个念科学系的人来说 是正确的态度吧
but then again  我本身也有可能是错的  这个想法我没有排除在外

“你为什么那么确定?”
这句话
是在质疑着你  还是在寻求肯定
你自己决定吧

可能你会觉得 不就是一样的东西吗?
再想想
是吗?你确定吗?

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

又一次的...

昨天说好今天10am你会叫醒我,然后一起去KL玩...

今天我从10点多等到1点多,一开始call不通你的电话,过后通了,你又一直睡回去。
现在你起身了,却给我一种不想去的感觉。
我等了三个小时,你不懂是不知情还是不管,对我还是这么冷淡。


原因是你还生气我?
生气我昨天凌晨4点多 要睡觉 不要陪你玩game?


拜托你,别再让我这么伤心了好吗?

Thursday, November 17, 2011

There was a time....

There was a time,
when I can speak my mind freely...
when I am confident in whatever I do that I feel is right...


There was a time,
when I communicate better with people...
when there is no need to speak in circles and hints...


There was a time,
when I am not constantly trying to please everyone...
when I am not always trying to guess what other people beside me thinks or says about me...


There was a time,
when people are more frank and straightforward...
when they can tolerate and forgive others more easily...






How I wish to go back to that time..