SeaShellWithoutPearl

There was a time....

2011-11-17T02:39:00.002+08:00

There was a time,

when I can speak my mind freely...

when I am confident in whatever I do that I feel is right...

There was a time,

when I communicate better with people...

when there is no need to speak in circles and hints...

There was a time,

when I am not constantly trying to please everyone...

when I am not always trying to guess what other people beside me thinks or says about me...

There was a time,

when people are more frank and straightforward...

when they can tolerate and forgive others more easily...

How I wish to go back to that time..

自私......失望

2011-08-04T17:59:00.002+08:00

你要几时才会停止那些自私的行为和想法？

你要几时才会懂得分轻重？

我以为，曾经经历过困难的你，会比较成熟、稳重、可靠，会比较懂得分寸...

你要就要，不要就不要，从来都不会顾虑到旁人的想法，有时还包括我...

你以为自己有顾虑我的感受，但你并没有...

我说了我不要你就应该理解我，而不是在那里发脾气、生气我...

很多时候就算我想要做一些事，但你说你不要、或是说做那些干什么、没意义之类的，我都没给你脸色看...

为什么？

为什么你想做的事情就必须得做？只要你自己开心，别人怎么不开心都没关系吗？

为什么你就是不懂得尊敬我？

我的感受不是感受？女人就没有说跟mood的？女人就只是傻傻跟着男人、任男人做他喜欢做的事？

你可以不要小小事就发脾气吗？你的忍耐度那么低，以后要怎么吃苦啊？以后我要怎么和你一起吃苦啊？若是说我有自己的烦恼，另一头又要一直安慰你，安慰不成还要忍受你的脾气，你要我怎么过日子啊？

我知道你疼我、会带我做我喜欢的东西、会带我去玩...

请不要让我觉得你所做的都带有目的...好吗？

我很爱你，所以别再一次又一次地让我流泪了，好吗？

对的人

2011-07-17T00:01:00.017+08:00

知道找到对的人的那个感觉吗？

第一眼望到你的感觉...我到现在依然记得清清楚楚

那个微微点头、轻轻微笑

那个很温暖的feel，那个很对的feel......言语表达不出来

Lol...这么严肃......看下照片吧~

这是我做给康的生日礼物,一直没机会upload......

好啦，是我懒 >.<"

咦咦......?

开出来是......

看到里面是什么吗？^-^

当当当当~

更清楚一点

玫瑰 = 爱

49粒 = 一生一世永永久久

彩虹色 = 你为我的人生带来了色彩

制作完毕了贪玩拿来拍照 xP

心形玫瑰

排队进瓶子去~

音符我们都爱音乐

我爱你，对的人。

-用尽了全力去爱你，所以没有遗憾。

2011-07-05T20:26:00.004+08:00

我等了你半个小时都没哼一声

你才等了我那五分钟就在那里cool给我看

我又不是时常让你等

你说你的车也在等

大不了油钱我还你

那么一点车油真的重要过我吗

我可以等你半个小时一个小时

你连五分钟都不舍得等

我的时间就不是时间吗

我最多生气一下就算你没tum我也都自然会没事

你有必要整个晚餐都耍脾气一直cool吗

你不能就至少看在我明天一早有考试控制一下吗

你一定在想我为什么没写那些和你一起的美好时光那些你给我的惊喜与快乐而写这些伤感情的东东

很抱歉我没办法把这些伤心的东西藏在我心里我会难过死的所以必须把它们掏出来

那些开心的事我可以把它们一直放在心里不必写出来但依然会记得...

情人节♥14/2/2011♥

2011-02-17T17:23:00.005+08:00

看到我今天的时间表：

8am-10am

12pm-2pm

4pm-6pm

再看康的时间表：

8am-10am

10am-12pm

2pm-4pm

OMG.

我除了早上8点和他一起去上课，到了6点才在有机会见到他?!!

唉~

7.30pm有半点练习，没机会和他接触。

唉~!

练习到11.15pm。

唉~!!

收拾到来11.30pm。

唉!!!

不过，我们在最后30分里度过了最甜蜜、最幸福的情人节^^

傻仔抱住我，突然间大喊:“茹!你的衣服上有什么东西?!!”

把我吓了一大跳。(=.=''')

他在我肩膀后边扫下扫下，突然“变”出了一条项链。

我傻眼了。

好漂亮的链!!

这个傻仔竟然记得我很久前说过的话。。

“我想买一条音符项链”...“如果你买项链给我，我一定一直戴着你的，不戴其他的”...

我真的是感动得...只差没哭出来而已。

过后他还送了我一盒巧克力!!哇~我的最爱啊~!!!

包装纸还是有bear bear的!!又是我的最爱!!

哇哇哇哇哇哇~!!!!!!!

不过。。。

我是觉得非常非常的惭愧啦!!

因为。。。因为。。。我没有准备到礼物给他!!

呜呜...!!!

对不起啊我的老公!!>.

我下次一定要找个机会好好“补回”给你!! xD

这个情人节，有了你，过得好开心。^^

我爱你,康。

-茹

First day of my degree programme

2011-01-10T08:28:00.004+08:00

It's the first day of class.

I was so nervous, I couldn't sleep well the whole night, keep on tossing and turning.

On the morning, I arrived at class..

Many people were inside it, around 20 of them.

When I entered, everyone was talking to friends or people beside them.

I sat down.

I knew no one there and I kept quiet, listening to people talking around me.

After about 5-10min, someone came in and said something I couldn't hear.

Then, everyone started LEAVING.

A boy near me said CLASS CANCELED and WE HAVE NO MORE CLASS FOR TODAY.

WT* did I wake so early for??

This was like the first day of foundation all over again, except that it was worse..

At least I talked to the girls and walked around INTI for a while together.

Sighs...maybe I should take some action...? >.<" WHY do I have to be so shy???

From now on, there will be no Yin Yee, Sally and Prue meeting together in front of my block with me before going to class (and no one to wake me up if I overslept ><), no Mallory in Bio class, no Siao Hui and Connie with her super laugh in Maths class, no Shan Yee and Edence to eat and talk with, no Kah Hou and Bota making funny jokes in class, no Huai Ern arguing with JJ and lecturers, no Ivan asking me for biscuits, no Ah Dong, Ah Sheng, Edmund and Kok Chin's loud voices, no presence of the few quiet ones--Neng Yi, Brandon, CK, Jia Khang, Ah Lai, Danny, Yoke Wei, Yeaw Sheng, Chuang Yee, Yang Jiet and Anithra, no more Dinesh and Navein skipping class...

OMG...I seriously miss all of you!! ='(

Songs

2010-11-25T14:14:00.005+08:00

Found them yesterday(while fb-ing i think), and i just fell in love. ♥

and for this video i especially love the rap part...

and i think that they are all sooooo talented!!♥♥♥

正式介绍。。。

2010-11-06T01:41:00.008+08:00

今天心血来潮，就把template换掉了。感觉到之前拿黑色蓝色的，有点阴、忧郁得感觉。。不是很舒服。。

听说，粉红色是恋爱的颜色？

有件事我一直都没做，就是。。。

向大家正式公布。。。这是我的男朋友---王家康先生。

很可爱吧？xD

这个傻仔，头很大。

虽然他有时脾气很暴躁、有时睡起觉来或玩起game来真的是让人顶不顺，

但，

他很照顾我。

我知道，他很爱我。^^

对不起，之前我一直没有很光荣地向全世界报告你是我的男朋友。

我不知道在害怕些什么。。。

我知道，你明白我。。。

谢谢你。

我不再害怕了，我想通了。

我爱你，康。

至另一个你：对不起，我未能守到我的承诺。

虽然对你感到有点愧疚，但，我并不后悔。

刚刚在facebook看了一个video,不懂为什么,里面的歌的歌词让我有感触。。。

2010-10-31T13:51:00.002+08:00

女唱歌名：纪念过后男唱歌名：我会很想你

词：夏依
唱：夏依
伴奏小笨提供的，

不要让我回头
我不想看到那结果
你说你的怀抱只属于我
可为什么她抱着你你却不推脱
告诉我你还爱我

它就像幻灯片放映在我眼前
告诉我我曾经那么幸福过
可现在你却牵这另一双手
陪你走过却不再是我

山盟海誓不要在对我说
因为我在也承受不了那结果
爱爱爱爱爱爱爱到最后
还是只有分手
不要告诉我幸福的理由

你曾经说过为我放弃所有
我把自己沉浸在你给的幸福之中
一个人走在雨中
想着你在她面前绽放的笑容

F: 那个路口我牵着你的手
说要陪你一起走
那个转角你松开我的手
说一辈子不要再回头

你我形同陌路擦肩而过
没有你我逃不出这十面埋伏
诠释温度怎样才习惯的角度
悲伤持续太久
不知该怎样面对所有

原谅我的懦弱原谅我没说出口
离开是我最好的解脱
很多也许的结果没有实现过
我的世界失去了颜色
不要在说爱我

看着你家窗口最后一滴眼泪滑落
瞳孔里全是你对我的温柔
不再明朗更多的只是忧愁
敷衍的一笑带过所有

想再牵起你的手
索取片刻的温柔
我自嘲希望时光能倒流
你的怀抱还能够温暖我

F: 那个路口我牵着你的手
说要陪你一起走
那个转角你松开我的手
说一辈子不要再回头

眼泪落下之前转身走过
用不舍融化所有的寂寞
记忆里还有你的名字
原来我对你还是那么不舍

最后的最后是她拥有了我该得到的温柔
是我选择独自漫游
最后的最后是你说出了口你还爱我
我还是放开手独自远走

康，希望我们不会这样。。

i ♥ u

厌!!

2010-09-18T11:27:00.004+08:00

我讨厌等人的感觉!!

说了却做不到...

昨天还说一定会!!

结果咧?

一开始你只让我等一个小时，过后开始让我等一个小时半，现在咧？

我。讨。厌。。。!!!

有那么难吗？

2010-08-29T22:47:00.002+08:00

就一声的交待，有那么难吗？

有一点时间观念，有那么难吗？

说好九点，我等你。。

不知不觉，十点半了，终于，我看见你上网。

虽然跟你有点发脾气，但，心里是非常开心的。

你说过，会上网开webcam让我看你。

我已经两天没见到你了咧...超想念你的...难道，你没有？

怎么知道，我连装生气都不到3分钟，你就告诉我，你要出去了。

心里突然一阵痛...

你答应我的webcam呢？

你说弟弟用你的电脑，难道你不能找我，不能事先sms我一下吗？

我还在这里傻傻地一直等你...

已经不是第一次了...

我这两天一直都是这样过...

你说会找我，我一直等你，结果，还不是我担心了忍不住call你？

“泪滴下了，但你不知道...”

Who will set my heart free??

2010-04-18T15:30:00.001+08:00

Damn but my heart hurts.T_T

Why isn't my brain a fish's brain?

I wanna forget the pain...

My New Gang--AppleBanana

2010-04-10T00:41:00.009+08:00

Apple banana is actually a name of a drink.
Why did it become our gang name??Cos we always go supper and drink it.[regular customers.LOL.]

This gang is officially started on the 6th of April when we went for supper outside INTI after a long discussion.We chatted a lot while drinking apple banana and eating chicken rolls,and we shared some of our secrets and stories.Actually we went for supper before this,but we only started to gang up on the 6th.Then on 9th April,"AppleBanana" became our official group name(before this don't have a name).We actually considered using the name "Dark Stars" at first,because after supper the 5 of us went to the basketball court and sit/lay there watching the stars.

Members of AppleBanana:
~Ivan the Banana~ His nickname came from someone who called him "Banana" one day(because she didn't want to use bad words...?@.@).So anyway it became his nickname.His specialty is his funny face expressions and evil mind.*Cat spinning in the air*.He's the one who introduced apple banana to us.Haha.

~John the Rooster~ He's born on the year of Rooster,and he has a "tail".*ting*.Hahah.He's always smiling,and likes to do stupid things.Always sleep late at night and late for class in the morning.xD He's Ivan's husband and fishball's ex-husband.LOL.

~Connie the Laughing Skeleton~ Just like her name,she specialize in laughing.Her laugh is AMAZING.Loud plus unstoppable.*John's got a video of her laughing.xD* And she has a unique walk.*always said to be walking like a dude.LOL.*

~Bei Bei the Blur(me)~ They say I've always got the blur expression on my face.*ha?* Ivan likes to imitate me.=.=" And I'm kinda the quiet one there,but my role is important.xD They actually miss my blur face when I'm not there.wuakakaka.

~Xiao Hui/Cathy the Anti Vege~ Not that she doesn't eat vegetable.Just that she found a vege in her milo 1night during supper and "eww!".Well you can all imagine that.We won't forget that hilarious story about her teacher.xD

Our activities:
1) Supper with apple banana and chicken rolls.
2) Sharing secrets and stories.
3) Watching stars at the basketball court.
4) Exploring!!xD
5) Introducing apple banana to others.(eg. Jessica,Fishball,CK..)

-OMG i love this gang la.-

Life at INTI--My First Week

2010-03-29T00:18:00.004+08:00

Seriously,life here is fun.
I've got some interesting lecturers,a real good roommate who likes to sing,and a bunch of crazily fun coursemates.
See now..
Pei Vian--that's my roommate.She's a nice girl.=)
Catherine--friend of Pei Vian's.nice funny girl.
Henry--friend of Catherine."BALLOON" omg..xp
Ming Yi,Shan Wei,Man Yee--AMCians at INTI!!^^
Connie--my mate from Ipoh too.^^ always get sooo excited about "something".xD
Yin Yee--my sweet cute coursemate from Kajang.
Prue--we're trying to "matchmake" her with Dinesh.xD
Sally--quite quiet.hmmmm..
Mallory--the teddy bear~cuteness.hahaha.
Anithra--the only Indian girl here.Always alone one.aww =(
Siao Hui--interesting girl.
Edence--study freak!!omg..always go library one..(no offence ya =>)
JJ--the troublemaker.
Dinesh--our ji mui!!haha..
Huai Ern--this world is small.cos he's a saxophonist from Nan Hwa Band!!omg!!
Chong Kim--this guy got so many friends lar~
Sky/Kok Ching--the FISHBALL!
Jia Khang--a bit quiet one..
Ivan--our class monitor for many subs.lol.
John--a guy from Myanmar..an interesting one.nice,friendly,funny,not to mention good-looking.=)

A drawing done by John Little to Sky a.k.a. Fishball.

I went for Qing Ming and then my sis's bf's house during the weekend,and I can't believe how much I miss the whole lot of them,even though I've only known them for one week.T_T

First Day of class

2010-03-22T12:43:00.003+08:00

It's my first day of class folks.
I woke up at 8something,clean up,and walked to the learning block,found my classroom,and stood outside.
Suddenly,someone came up and said there's NO CLASS for us today.
We walked to the Pre-U Office to ask,and they say today is our first day,lab class not started yet..blablabla..and WE'RE FREE FOR THE WHOLE DAY.whoots^^
We(my coursemates and I) walked around for a while,and returned to our rooms.
So here I am,blogging.muahahahaha~

You're right,i won't listen.

2010-03-13T21:39:00.005+08:00

If you think that my relationship with him is so fragile that some words from a third party will break us apart,then you're sorely wrong.Hasn't SOMEONE told me that for 3 years and yet i'm still with him?
你们知不知道，你们对我说的话，让我更有那个欲望和冲劲要证明给你们看，我们的关系是多么坚固的吗？

If you're so damned sure that our relationship won't work out and we'll break up,just let me learn that damned lesson MYSELF.
i won't learn if you keep telling me to break beforehand.i might even have that regret my whole life.
你时常把我给保护得们就是好好的，所以我才什么都学不到！不要误会，我是非常感激，但。。你看我现在，什么都不敢做，一直依赖人家。。。我超级不喜欢这样的自己！

说分就分，你真的以为有这么容易？？请你不要小看我们的感情。
“他又不是说很帅那种啦。。又不是很聪明。。如果聪明你还说可以抓住他。。。”
你把我当什么了？？i do NOT love him because of his looks,or his brains,okay??!
And PLEASE,DO NOT CRITICIZE HIM.i do NOT like it ONE BIT.

我相信，如果他肯努力，以后一定会出人头地证明给你们看！！

-不是我不听你们的话，但，请你们尊重我。-

4am,5/3/2010

2010-03-05T03:49:00.002+08:00

我等了你这么久，结果咧？？
又是失望一场。
说了两三句，你就“可以啦”要睡觉了。
过后连我不开心你都不肯留下哄我一下。。
为什么？？“朋友催了，要睡觉了。”

朋友一催你就急着立刻做，我催了你这么久的事，你有做到吗？
我到底是你的谁？？所谓的“女朋友”，比“朋友”都不如吗？

我为你付出的一切，都不足够让你为我牺牲一下吗？
说真的，你到底为我牺牲过什么？
钱，说话的力气和时间，见面走路的力气，然后呢？

我不开心时，你的反应不是哄我，而是"haiz...!!"
好像在说“又来了！”
怎么？我不开心，你感到很不耐烦吗？
你知道我听到你一直“haiz..haiz..”，我会感到更加心痛和失望的吗？

我时常问我自己，我怎么那么傻，为了你天天这么迟才睡。。不只是睡眠，还有健康和美丽都在为你牺牲咧。我得到的是什么？？

2.30am,1/3/2010

2010-03-01T02:29:00.004+08:00

常常欺骗我的感情，还说不喜欢我不开心？？
常常伤我的心，但还希望我时常嬉皮笑脸地对着你？？

对不起，我的心不是用铁做的。

你的话，越来越不能信了。
说了会做的事，一件也没完成。。
什么都“好像”，“应该”。。

你说，你会找我。
我等你。
结果，你有找我吗？？

为什么我会常常想：你有在乎我吗？
怎么我在你心里好像都不重要？？

......

2010-02-24T00:41:00.005+08:00

可能这样子说很不公平，但你说“难道你要避我做我不喜欢的事？”，我觉得很不应该。。
换着是我，就算那件事我很不喜欢，但只要为了你，让你开心，我还是会照做。。
毕竟，像你所说的，那只是件小事。。

可能很不对，但我还是有种你连这小事都不愿为我付出，牺牲的感觉。。

可能别人会说，“可能他为你付出的是在别的方面，你没发觉到呢？”

可能你也觉得你为我付出已经很多了，我怎么还这么不知足在那边不开心？

可能你看见这个post会不开心。。但。。应该没那个可能吧。。
到处去找关于你的东西，网上所有的profile，看你有什么update，为了是要了解你更多，那只是我这个笨蛋会做的吧。。

你。。应该不会来看我的blog，我的facebook profile，看我msn有没有online，pm那里写些什么。。

关心，有吗？口头上,可能有吧。。

感触~!!!

2009-12-24T13:19:00.004+08:00

过了好久才开始写回blog。。有点陌生呢。。但一开始了，那个瘾却又被激发了。。

整颗心有着好多复杂的心情呢。。
最多最多的，就是想念和不舍。。

我好想念我的学妹们啊。。。！！！真的，想念到无法用词语来解释。。
脑海里一直出现着我在band里整个路程。。这些flashbacks让我心情。。aih。。不会讲。。
好想念跟你们打打闹闹呢。。虽然时常被人说幼稚。。但我就是喜欢和你们玩在一起吗。。互相欺负，互相玩弄，互相帮助，互相教导。。。

我也好想念我的宝贝soprano sax 啊！！大半在band里的生活就是和他一起过了。。
一起练习，一起经过艰苦的训练，一起在大太阳下晒，一起在草场操步，一起在stadium及concert hall比赛，一起在各种场合表演。。。
我那么少来找你了，你会寂寞吗？我好想念跟你谈天。。虽然会有人觉得我很奇怪。。但毕竟和你一起了那么久，感觉也深了。。不久后你应该会另有所属八？想到就好伤心哦。。T_T
我也好想念帮你polish 到亮亮哦。。每次都会很骄傲地想：我的宝贝正漂亮！^_^
恨不得想把你拐回家！！wuwu..

我的宝贝。。

就如我的blog title，真的感触良多啊~

-i've found my pearl in AMC band,at last.

2009 AMC Band Passing Out

2009-12-24T00:36:00.002+08:00

I actually have so much to write that I don't know where to start.*sigh*

19th Dec (this is not included in the passing out..sorry)
I reached school at about 7.30am.Guess what?Only 5 other ppl there: 1 F1,1F2,2F3 and Yian Theng.No F4 in sight.What?Aren't they in charge of this camp?
Everyone dunno where to put bags..cos all the classrooms taken by St. John.
Sighs.Then more ppl came,but not 1 is F4 de.Everybody just crowded at the porch until the F4s came.

Then,we went on the bus to KL.We went to Sunway Pyramid.We wanted to go ice-skating at first,but many ppl there+expensive+not enough time.So we went to play the machines instead..the basketball one,bowling one,and another throw ball de.Then we went to have lunch at Sushi King.
Fish Leong can pay back the starbucks she owed me at last!!But..went she gave it to me she already drank half..ISHH!!YOU STILL OWE ME HAKF AR FISH LEONG!!

Next we went to Stadium Bola Sepak,Cheras to watch the KLWMBC.God.The Thailand bands are sooooo good!!We can't even compare to their junior band.T_T You all must work hard tau?Get as good as them!!You all can de!!Gambate!!

20th Dec
Reached school at 2something.Bathed and straight went to sleep.Then 6something wake up!!Swt..
When warm up we ran..all the F5s almost died.Lol.Too long din run dy cos of SPM(you see?what's the good of SPM?!).
Then trained the performinf songs..and..the inevitable--Mr Ho's speech.As always,many ppl 钓鱼..sighs..i really 佩服 him sometimes..although I always fall asleep during his speech,everything he tells us is really meaningful and very useful in our lives..I just can't help falling asleep..sorry la!!

21st Dec
Arrange and clean the halls after warm up.Then relax a bit cause I no part in chamber.xD
Then jao get ready for the performance le!!
Nervous man..the f5s line up to get the certs..so many ppl looking..@_@
Then my juniors tied the blue scarf on my neck and gave me present and hugs..I almost cried..=(

Good thing I din mess up my solo during performance like I did during practise.>.<
It's actually not bad!LOL.Last time performing le with the band le..feel sad..aihs..
My dad and bro oso came..happy-nya~^_^
Although they din hear my solo part..bubu..
After performance the F5s all busy take pictures..until dun wanna eat dinner liao..
Last time gathering with the whole lot of you le!!Dunno when can meet again also..gonna miss you guys..sobs..
Then after I just finished Shi Yi barbeque for me de 2 chicken wings,it's time for the sharing..aihs..i wanna eat dinner laa~~~bubu..
Angel..you can fight with Mr. Ho liao..haha..so long de leh your speech..although more funny la..(shh!!xD)

After that,Kar Mun asked us(F5) to play 老鹰捉小鸡 with her.So funny man.
All the juniors looking at us 老耶 at the basketball court playing.Then more and more ppl joined in.We've had lots of fun that day.I missed it so much..=)
Then it's time for the game that the F3s had organised for us.
The lovely Mrs Yan a.k.a. Cheong Sui Cheing was my group's fasci.
Although I complaint a lot,but their games are actually quite fun.
Just that someone spoiled the fun.haiz.Don't talk about that la.
Then,since we can't really sleep anyway,we(me,amanda,gillian,hwee san,kah mun,eunice,xin yee,weng wai and pui yi) keng gai until 5someting..
Talked about a lot of things..and I was kinda surprised and pleased actually..I haven't talk to gillian,kah mun,hwee san,xin yee and weng wai much before..really happy that we can talk about things after all..^_^

22nd Dec
Woke up at 8something..initially they say 10something only wake..but some workers came to work on the hall's roof..Aihs.
Then I heard someone say Kar Mun was still barbeque-ing!!For the whole night!!
Went for second round de barbeque lo..quite fun..
After that we clean up the hall,basketball court where we barbeque,and toilet.
Then went to MP hall to watch movie.."Swing Girls".Not bad that movie.Then suddenly the hall's roof fell.Luckily it didn't hit anyone.Sweat.
We moved to band room to watch in the end.More syok than in MPH leh.Dark,cool..^^
I love our bandroom.^^

I really wanna thank all my juniors for this memorable passing out camp.
We can really see the efforts you all put in.
Especially the Form3s,your games are fun,your video clip is nice,and your dances are superb.
Although some of you always gik us til high blood pressure..but..I LOVE YOU ALL!=(

I really miss AMC Band a lot.
I miss the times and memories I had.
I miss all the members I've spent time with,from 2005 F5 til 2009 F1+PA.
I miss practising formation on the field.
I miss practising basics in the halls.
I miss practising songs in the band room.
I miss eating,bathing,and resting with my friends during camps.
I miss all the silly jokes.
I miss EVERYTHING!!*sighs*

-appreciate,you guys.-

Lee Bei Ru = Vampire ??

2009-09-10T16:45:00.004+08:00

Reasons I think I might be a vampire:

1. My face always look a bit pale,everyone says that..like I'm sick.=.=
2. I'm more active in the dark than in daylight.
3. I seemed to have a mild case of anaemia--in other words,I don't have enough blood.
4. I sleep during the day,and is very much awake at night.
5. I like dark places more,and will feel faint in bright ones.
6. I hate too shiny things.
7. Vampire-related movies are just so nice!xD

The only things are I don't drink blood,I don't have blue eyes,I don't have fangs,I don't have super powers and I don't live in a coffin. :(
Whadyou think?=)

Alright,I'm just plain crapping here.You can ignore me.>.<

Recommendations

2009-09-06T10:58:00.002+08:00

Just for reviving my hibernating blog..=D

A funny advertistment recommended by my bro:

And an interesting acapella video from my sister:

20.08.2009 -- 2周年快乐!^_^

2009-08-20T22:19:00.005+08:00

两年前的今天,我接受了你,做你的女朋友...
我一早就喜欢你了,只是因为要确定我对你的感觉,确定我的学业不会受到影响..
从那时起,我对你的爱,就是越来越深...

一年前的今天,我们见了面,但因为有许多朋友在,是你害羞吧?对我好冷淡哦...
同样的一天,你让我的心受了伤...
你告诉我你没有拍拖的感觉了...
那时,真的好伤心...
不过,幸好你恢复了.^_^

今天,我们又见面了...
情形和一年前截然不同呢...
这几天一直都是甜甜的...
而且你这次对我一点也不冷淡...
虽然,不懂为什么,和你一起时时间会过得特别快...
但,好开心哦!!

我的宝贝老公,
和你已经有两年的回忆了,开心,伤心,生气,感动...
这一切对我来说都非常非常地珍贵...
记得,你对我来说是最棒的!!
无论如何,你都是我最爱的宝贝老公!!

致我唯一的最爱.

夹在中间..

2009-07-26T16:09:00.004+08:00

在7月24号的比赛,三德获得了冠军.

这近期来,越靠近比赛,心情就越不好,越黑暗.
到了比赛那天,曾经试过好几次想哭了.
眼睁睁地看着别的队伍练习,彩排,比赛.
一直想起以前和队友们一起在学校练习,在stadium彩排,走formation,等成绩的感觉..
心离知道,自己再也没有机会再做这些事了..
得知比赛成绩后,心情变得复杂.
伤心,因为我在BAND里最后一年竟然没得出赛.
我就要这样带着遗憾毕业了..
开心,因为男朋友得了冠军,他开心,我也替他开心.
嫉妒,这个心情不用解释的吧?

直到现在,心情还是没有平复...
心,还在淌着血..

P/S:Congratulations to Sam Tet,St. Michael and Nan Hwa.
我的老公,daddy,kor,didi,还有其他朋友,
虽然我很嫉妒你们,可能也有点不想你们赢(band里的风风雨雨你们都明白吧?换着是我们赢,你们也会不想吧?),但是还是要恭喜你们.
加油!!为Perak争光,知道吗?

I don't know if i'm allowed to post this,but..AMC you did well!!

极度不爽!!

2009-07-20T22:39:00.003+08:00

最后的争取?
有必要那么可悲吗?
我就知道你们搞不定这件事.
可能这是你们想要的吧.
不理别人的不想..
还可只是一个人的固执,一个人想要..
为什么就不接受??
要是这样那么一开始就好争取了吗..
两样事情都不一样的..
我,早在n年前接受了,那时还得一直用"有得在最后一年当观众,不用辛苦,可以和朋友一起逛"来安慰自己..
现在??当我已经接受,安排,在这情况下找到能让自己开心的东西时,偏偏搞出这解决不掉的东西..
最后一年都不能享受..
可能,你会说你已经试过了,尽力了..
再想一想,有吗?还是没拼了?怕失去些什么吧..
不然,本来就没有心要拼..本来就是很想"争取"..
真的为我们好,就不应该让我们受这种"折磨"..
缺课,受拘束,现丑,一动也不能动地眼睁睁地看着别人做自己再也不会有机会做的事..
我可以要求不要参与吗?
可笑.这还用问的?
可能你会说我自私..
不过,如果是这样的话,自私的不止我一个人..

写blog的定义本来就包括发泄.

Not Good Enough

2009-07-14T15:17:00.008+08:00

Why am i just not good enough?

Parents day
Teacher:Her results quite good ah.Not bad..all A's and B's?No C??
(scan my report card,spotted my sejarah)Ohh.Only 1 lah...okay ah..
Mum:Got C ah..
Teacher:Aiyah,sejarah,it's understood la.It's all memorising,and some student really cannot..ah...(laughs)
Mum:(her face shows that she wanna say i'm not good enough)She didn't work hard enough la..
Teacher:Wah.To me it's quite good lo.See,she got no.6 in class,and she's quite active in the band right?ahh...
Mum:.......

On the way home
Mum:Actually just now when your teacher say you are quite good I wanted to say "not good enough" de..
Me:......(i just knew it.)

Home
Dad:(looking at my results)Hmmp,your physics so bad ah?And your chemistry ah,better brush up.Wah.Sejarah got C?It's a compulsory subject leh.......
Me:......

During dinner on saturday night
Mum:(talking to aunt about the report card day)...and her teacher help her explain wo..say the sejarah what what what............
Me:......

SPM trial is coming.
Mum has taken to telling me to study whenever she saw me in front of the computer or tv,or when i'm reading story books.
i dislike studying.i don't hate it,but i'm not the studying type.why wun you understand?
i am NOT my sis.i am NOT my cousin.i am ME.Why don't you accept me as me?arghhhh.....
i know that you have higher expectations from me.
i know that it's for my own good,for my future.
But now i felt as though i am studying for mum.
i listen in class and i do my homework la.
it's not that i wanna rebel.ishh!!
i don't like form6.i wanna go study my biotech faster.
But it's not that i don't understand about the financial problem.
i like going to band practices.Playing songs make me forget about most problems,sadness,etc...
i don't go there just because i have to.
Why do you frown and say i need to study and "still have to go meh?" everytime i said i got band practice?
Even if i needn't go,that it's time for my retirement,i still want to go.i like it there.
i know that you want me to put my studies as the priority.Although it isn't my topmost interest.
But.The stress can kill me.
I've felt like giving up many times.
I've felt like rebelling many times.
But i didn't do it,because i don't want to hurt you.
Being a good child is hard.

-feelings vented.

24.6 Happy Birthday to me.xD

2009-06-24T16:48:00.016+08:00

Ta-da.The birthday girl.

Today is my big day.
I was sad in the first few hours.Cried a bit. Cos my bf fell asleep and didn't find me!>.< Then.He woke up at 3something and called me.@_@
Which is why i went to school with bengkak eyes.

So,i spent a good part of the day in band room.
Firstly to clean it up,getting sweaty dragging stuff across the room and up the stairs,and sweeping the stairs,then practise,then get ready for the rakaman.
arghh.
Mum brought me to Beacon Point for lunch.The hot chocolate is so yummy!!

And at night,my dad cooked maggi mee with sausges and egg for me.
Yum.Thanks dad.Although it's all dry cos i bathed too slowly.Haha.

I wanna say a big THANKS for everyone who has wished me.=)
*~My family~*
-my mum
-my sis
-sis's boyfriend nai shyan korkor
-cousin bao ling
-cousin pei jean
-cousin jeffrey
-my godfather and family
*~My lougong dear~*
*~All my 5s5 classmates~*
*~My god family~*
-bryan bro
-zeon kor
-andrew
-yap choun liang
-ke min jie
-boon jie di
-sean di
-jeremy di
-hui chi mama
-wai sian daddy
*~My band mates~*
-may theng
-huiyun
-foo yi wen
-angel
-claudia
-pui yi
-eunice
-wei hua
-wei kei
-mei ying
-kar mun
-yian theng
-jia yin
-fenny
-yik mun
-alixia
-vivian lee
-sei hwui
-yee min
*~other friends~*
-quan de
-lim dao sheng
-hai teng
-jenson
-jason lim
-jiann yao
-wen loong
-yan lin
-pui yan
-jeremy chew
-jason ng
-jiunn hong
-choon tyng
-chloe
-sophia
-kenji
-ming fei
*~people i don't know~*
-janice
-dinesh
-james
-ng kok chin
-chee wai
-welson
-wei herr
-michael chong

I also wanna thank those who gave me presents:
*~mum(new bag)
*~sis(shades)

*~godfather(bread+chocolate+angpao)

*~hui chi ah ma and wai sian daddy(pink dolphin doll)

*~wen-yi zai(chocolates)

*~vivian(a dunno-what-animal keychain)
*~may theng(a four-leaf-clover globe)
*~pui yi(a teddy bear)
*~my beloved lougong(a couple ring.my fav!!^^)

Don't know if i've left out anyone.But all the same,thanks and i love you all!!muahx!!

Siao people - Episode 3

2009-06-22T22:48:00.005+08:00

i can't believe it.
i didn't reply that stupid guy's last(3rd) comment.
But he sent another comment to me,yet again.
I don't wanna comment on it.
It's such a big difference from the last posts.
From scolding me ugly and disgusting,now.......
Ahem.Just read it for yourself.

"Dear ~ y no choi me jor ?
Sob ~ sob
syok loh.....i miss u every nite...
bcuz of u always cry , faster reply me la
muaxx....i love you lou poh zai ~"

Good lord.

Return of the siao people

2009-06-16T15:12:00.004+08:00

That crazy guy replied me at last.
Wanna know what he wrote this time?
(please refer to 2 post before this to see his previous comments.)
Here it is:
err..wan u tat ppl rili bullshit man cuz they damn bad taste.n im so sure they nt handsum like i m..aiya..c wat mirror la..the reality ard show tat im handsum lo..err..k la..give u some face la..act u quite...err..nt quite...is vr vr vr disgusting lo..haiz..suan ba.pray lot la..if u nd help ,find me,i satisfy uMUAKZZZ

This is the very original post,copied and pasted directly.

So,the conclusion is:This guy is perveted as well as disgustingly self-loving.
Why?Just look at his last sentence la.So damned disgusting."if u nd help ,find me,i satisfy uMUAKZZZ"
Anyone else feel like beating him up?

See.Here's the proof.(click on the image to enlarge and read)

Although,like i said in my reply to my friends' comment,this guy is probably set up by other people,as Ah Mai said.His photos looked like kena curi take de,as Kenji said.

So.Should i reply him or should i ignore as suggested by my sis and friend?

tagged by soph.

2009-06-15T22:49:00.002+08:00

1. Do you have any secrets?
yea sure.

2. Have you tried not eating anything for few days.?
nope.

3. Do you enjoy going school.?
yea.sometimes.lol.

4. Coffee or more coffee.?
none.except,like soph,for starbucks.xD

5. Laughter or forever smile.?
both.haha.

6. Who is more important.? Lover or Best friends.?
both oso important.

7. The person you like is already attached, what will you do.?
nothing?

8. What made you smile today.?
funny pics.

9. Angelic or devilish.?
half half.lol.

10. How would you see yourself in 10 years time.?
in the mirror la.just joking.xp

11. Who are currently most important people to you.?
family,friends and my bf.hahahaha..

12. what is the most important thing in life.?
L.O.V.E.

13. Are you single or attached.?
attached.aha.

14. What is your favourite colour.?
blue

15. What is your wish.?
happiness for everyone?hehe.

16. Have you ever wondered what would happen after life?
hmm.no.i've no idea.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done.?
depends.

18. Which do you prefer.? Spending time with family or being close with people who understand you.?
both. =p

19. What is your biggest regret in your life.?
i'm too lazy for words.*sighs*

20. 5 people you're tagging.?
kenji
alixia
ee lyne
vice
claudia
(can't think of anyone so simply tag although they probably won't do it.xp)

Siao people..=.=

2009-06-12T01:06:00.005+08:00

Just why do i have to meet so many people with mental problems??

See,here's a guy in friendster that i don't know.
You look at his profile already can see he's a really self-loving person.(note:the abnormal self-loving type.)
Nah.Here's his profile url:
http://profiles.friendster.com/67270327

Alright then.One day he sent such a comment to me(please remember that i don't know this guy and didn't have any form of contact with him at all before):
hello...although ur look very 7 sohai but i won't mind...everyone say i'm handsome but.....i ALWAYS THINK I'M~haix...very hard to be ugly...walk on streets everyone looking at me...sometimes girls wan signature and phone no. from me...do u wan??anyway the ugly ppl i'm talking about is u~U SHIT!

Okay la.This is my reply:
ei.do i even noe u ar?
did i ask ur opinion of me?
and i dun give a d*mn for ur signature and phone no.
self-perasan-ing ppl.

Then.He replied me:
deng..u lok at mirror la.hu wan u wo..my opinion is 4 ur own gud...go cut botak la.mayb wil b beta geh..

I got really really angry at this piece of human nonsence:
deng urself la.
did i ever say got ppl wan me?
too bad for u lo.cos really got ppl wan me.
u look at the mirror urself la.
sam mm sik chat scold ppl wor.
if u think ur opinion is even important u're soo wrong.
i tell u.u cut jor botak still will same like gam.
still no ppl wan!!

I read my comments before i approve them,so naturally i didn't approve these mental stuff.
However,i didn't delete them(for prove ma xD) so whoever wanna see just tell me.
I'm waiting to see what this stupid guy's gonna reply.
Or should i just ignore him?He don't really deserve my attention.
Actually i feel myself kinda childish for arguing with him.But i really very angry and mo ming qi miao ma.
Hmm...how?

纯粹发泄,别想太多..

2009-06-05T21:46:00.004+08:00

看一下我的手指.黑和白.好像Angels and Demons哦.哈哈哈..
这展现出了我狂野的一面.这几天不开心的事连连发生,压力极大,所以就...
把指甲图成这样也算是发泄吧..
不过,注意到了吗?黑和白是一样多的.虽然图的时候没想那么,过后发现..
其实这是中等的现象吧?

人在处理任何事不都应该保持中立吗?
为什么有些人就是不可以这样?
难道你们只是期望对方改变,但,你们自己就是对的吗?
你们为什么那么的自私,那么的不会替人着想?
你们不开心,就要弄到别人不开心吗?
你们为什么要那么不负责任,推卸了自己的责任,还要责怪别人?
明明就是自己不想负责任,而作出那种自私的事,令自己和别人都难受..
你们思想为什么那么不成熟?
叛逆,生气..这一切都不能改变事实的..接受会比较好过吧..
为什么不要试着去接受?为什么不给别人和自己一个机会?
为什么那么理所当然的认为别人会知道你不喜欢她的某某东西?
为什么不有事直接说,而在背后说别人的坏话?
可能别人没有发现到.你不告诉别人,别人怎么知道自己错在哪里,怎么知道要改?
为什么要一直伤害别人?你们自己会很爽,是这样吗?

这次的camp,为一让我开心的,就是发现我juniors可爱的一面..
其实她们没有想象中的可怕..
其实,她们还是可教之材..
其实,她们还蛮听话的..

可悲啊,跟juniors相处得比跟同辈的容易..
不过放心,我是不会死认我们不会做回朋友..
我还是会尝试去接受你们的..
问题是你们肯不肯也一起接受..
大家有所改变,就可以好好相处了,不是吗?

Quiet Joy

2009-05-21T22:48:00.005+08:00

At last I get to see you after more than a month..
I've thought of this meeting for so long..
I've missed you so much..
I thought that I would be very excited and fling myself at you the minute I saw you..
But I only slipped into the seat quietly..
I was mesmerized by the sight of you..
I feel the quite joy of being able to look at you..
To look into your beautiful eyes..
To sit next to you,feeling your presence in all my being..
To indulge in the feel of my hand in yours,when you took hold of it..

Although we only sat there and ate and talked quietly,I felt the quiet happiness in me..
Although I just saw you not long before,I missed you since the moment we parted..

i miss you.
so,so much..

Pathetic

2009-05-19T14:52:00.006+08:00

Why do people like to leave horrid comments in others' pages with no name?
or worse,with other people's name?
So you're not satisfied with your own identity?Sigh.Your poor mum and dad.
Please la,if you're not happy with someone just say it out face to face.Don't do such cowardly things la.
This kind of people is just..pathetic.

This happened to two of my friends.
This is where a different side of me comes out.>.<

Do not insult my friends that way.
You're just insulting yourselves.

18/5 ''Teachers' Day''

2009-05-18T15:06:00.008+08:00

*Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers!!*

Lol.I can't believe i so hou sei go and wish my teachers.
Hmm.Maybe i'm just too free.
Free?Your head la!Tml..When chemistry meets physics..you'll see.
Come back first.Yea.My teachers ar.Actually.Most of them not bad de.
Actually.I'm quite happy with AMC teachers.Although some of them just get under your skin,they are actually quite dedicated.I mean.Compared to the other skuls around here la.*dry laugh*

Oh yea.Wish my mum Happy Teachers' Day too.
I get to eat the cake she brought back!!xD
Actually,it's part of my lunch.Together with some friend meehun and some ulam thingy.LOL.

Ei??Go back go back.Skul teachers' day.
Hmm.Ben lai we should be celebrating it on the 29th of May(a day before holidays).God knows why it have to be changed to today.
And so we're cheated of a 'rest day' and all those 表演 la.
Got ppl sing only lo.They're actually quite good.AMC banyak potential singers leh.xD
And then there's Vivien..she sang a song she created!So so talented man.And her voice..arghhh!!!
Her style quite like Lee Hom.Malaysian female version of Lee Hom.hahahas.If you pursue a career in singing,Vien,i'll give you my support 100%!xp

Hmm.This is the first time i wrote a blog that feels like i'm talking to myself.Hahaha.

i miss you=)

Unspeakable perverts!!

2009-05-16T12:07:00.005+08:00

What in God's name is wrong with guys nowadays?!
Why do they like to show their..ahem..cock to complete strangers?!
Why do i have to come across a total of 6 guys like this just in my short 16+ years of life?!
Can anyone tell me??

So yesterday i was onlining and chatting with a couple of friends,and checking on my friendster(i can send comments again,finally.yay!).
Then,a conversation box popped out.
It's that pervert la.who else?
The conversation went like this:

Pervert:hi
Me:hi
Pervert:hehe
*sends Video Call*
Me:*ignore the video call*
do i noe u?
Pervert:i add ur msn from friendster

(i used his email add in msn to search in friendster-zero results)

Me:what's ur friendster?
Pervert:u wan to see my birdbird?
(wha..?)
Me:no
i wanna see ur friendster
(silence..for about 10minutes)
Pervert:*nudge*
Me:what?
Pervert:accept the video call la.i let u see my birdbird.
(what the heck?didn't i just refused him?)
Me:dun wan
Pervert:(i forgot what he said.about those things la.)
(he sent webcam.I declined.He sent again.I declined again.)
Me:......
do i look like a damned slut?
go find others la
(i'm really angry dy.the first time i used the whole word 'damn' when conversing with another.the most i use is 'd*mn'.hmm.but since he's a pervert he need not be respected la.)
Pervert:oh.
do u have friends wan to see?
(what the heck?)
Me:no
Pervert:ask them la
(yea.u wished)

Then the pervert suddenly offlined.Maybe disconnected or something.
I went to look for his name in my contact list,clicked 'block this contact' and deleted him.
*cheers*

For God's sake,masturbate if you want to,but don't go showing everyone la.Are you an idiot?
What do you expect me to do?Get high?Wake up la.
And I don't know why i'm still talking about this kind of guys.The whole bunch of you just get lost la.
ding.

I went to sleep in a killer mood.'Cause my bf fell asleep and i didn't get to vent out the feelings.
Oh yea.I thank God that my bf is not this kind of guy.He almost burst out laughing when i told him this morning.
Me:why do they like to show that..thing..ah?very shuang meh?
Bf:why u ask me wor?
hahahas.

p/s:sorry for those words.i really feel like murdering someone.this blog totally spoils my image la.*sighs*

Akai Ito

2009-05-09T22:27:00.003+08:00

A Japanese drama i watched recently and in love with.=)My sis's blog have its theme song,and after listening to it i went to search for the drama.It's actually not just a normal romance drama,but it teaches us a lot of moral values.It's really touching in some parts.And Minamisawa Nao(as Mei) and Mizobata Junpei(Atsushi/A-kun) absolutely make you fall in love with them!!xDD

Here's the trailer:

Sypnosis: The story was one of the best-selling novels of 2007, it revolves around the "red thread of fate" connecting the young pair Mei and Atsushi(who are both born on 29th Feb) and the trials they face. The story focuses on the emotional and spiritual growth of the teenage heroine, while depicting everything from her adolescent love troubles to her close friend's struggle with drugs. Akai Ito refers to the East Asian belief of the red string of fate. Originating from Chinese legend, "the red string of fate" myth states that the gods tie an invisible string around the pinky fingers of men and women who are destined to be soul mates and will one day marry each other.

And here's the theme song,366 days.A very beautiful and meaningful song:

If you're interested,can go to http://www.mysoju.com/akai-ito/ or http://www.dramaclick.com/view.php?id=111872&category=3&part=1 for the full drama.
Just check it out.You'll fall in love with it too!xD

Kuantan Trip =)

2009-04-19T22:16:00.024+08:00

and so i'm back from Kuantan.more memories with my beloved friends and juniors.

1st day
ntg much.just have to wake up at 4.15am and den sit bus for 7hours.zzz.
den went sound check and went to our asrama.

2nd day
free day for us.practise a while in the morning and went Kuantan Parade in the afternoon.
hung out with Eunice and Kar Yee.ben lai Pui Yi with me.but then she went to follow Cow.sobs.

3rd day
Competition day!!overall is not bad.
went to Kuantan Parade again.
ben lai Yee Min going to belanja us pizza.but she run off for sushi.T_T
good thing she later got belanja starbucks.kaka.
next went to the beach(is Tanjung Cempedak i think.not so sure..).play water,take pic,take silly videos..Only word to describe--fun!!
went back to SEMSAS for jamuan.results came out.arghh.we got it by our hardwork.u all have no right to look down on us.we will prove it!!

4th day
come back to ipoh le.watched some videos .cool man!!at last..home sweet home~^^but i miss it there.sobx..

words cannot really describe it.here are some pics(some more in Pui Yi,Eunice and Wei Hua's camera.will get from them a.s.a.p.):

childish peoples xD

LOL.

now.if u're to see very clearly,there's 3 very different expressions there.

messy..

Eunice's dinner at Kuantan Parade ''Fun Hei Dei''(before).

Her dinner(after).i noe i just plain wu liao la~

Yee Leng,Angel,me.

My first ever Starbucks--belanja-ed by my good junior Fish Leong Yee Min.

Huiyun and me at the beach.=]

This's the beach.nice?

AMC Band.=)

hahaha.a photo requested by Mon-hah(Alixia).I'm supposed to be "zuk gan"-ing Yee Min and Alixia.

Clarinet Fishes representing my good juniors:Fish Leong(梁鱼敏),Fishball(Fish Goh),Fish Lim(林佩鱼) and Fish Chen(陈宴鱼).Clarinet section becoming fish section liao.(bass becoming monster section xD)

Jia Yin,Ah Mai,May Theng,Me,Fenny,Angel,Huiyun.Everyone's acting.We do that on purpose.HAHAHA.

me and my soprano sax "bao bei",theng and her trumpet "haha",fen with her bass clarinet,angel and yik mun.

**The photos are not so complete.will try to complete them soon!!

Blue Blog

2009-04-03T21:07:00.004+08:00

So,i've just found out that my sis sometimes feel like whacking me when she read my blog.
Okay la.skip that.

good that bro's feeling better too.
hmmm.
something i saw from bro's blog.
it's a kind of personality quiz.
my results:

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

[well.what can i say?so true..]

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

[haha.u got me.]

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

[hmm.i'm not so sure about this..]

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

[lol.flirt and behave seductively?i think not gua..i'm very serious okay?]

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

[sure thing.]

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

[haha.i've already focused on something.]

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

[well,yea.kinda.]

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

[true oso ba.]

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

[hmm.the give good advice part i'm not so sure,but others are all quite true la.]

the results are quite accurate.wanna try it out?go to http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

no mood today.reasons?plenty of them.i dun wanna list out.

to a friend:feeling like u're leaving us.no reply when we wish u.
hmm.maybe u have closer friends than us now.
but i still feel that u needn't be that cold to us.
maybe it's something we did?
u'll have to tell us,cos we have no idea at all.
u probably wun read this blog,but whatever.

probably u'll see this blog's all blue.that's my mood--blue.
leave comments if u can,advice if u will,critics if u must.
but i'm just venting out my feelings and thoughts in this blog.
i have to,or i'll go mad for keeping everything inside.that's what blogs are for anyway.
u mustn't judge a person's blog.no offence.=)
kay.that's all for today.

26/3-我的想法与事件

2009-03-26T22:49:00.006+08:00

好久没blog了!!
哇噻..突然又不懂要写什么样了.zzz.

生病了好多天啊..
从band camp出来(18/3)就开始,到现在..
不过嘉颍比较可怜,放假前一个星期就病到现在.
哈哈.get well soon啦 =]

26/3.我的好知己-潘淑芬美女生日咧!!
生日快乐啊~!!
送了一份我亲手做的礼物.
她好像蛮喜欢的.
开心就好啦,这位美女!=)
对不起没得和你庆祝..
我星期六会尽量俸场的啦!!

今天是星期四.
本来有得见我的宝贝的..
但是由于没有softball练习,病又没好,所以被他"命令"回家休息..
想念你啦~!
但没办法啦.你都问到我:"要不要做听话的老婆"咯.
我能怎样答你?
至少你答应了下个星期保证会见^^

想要发泄的一件事:
i really dun like u la!!ngam ngam cham cham..
keep on talking to yourself..no one reply oso keep on talking.
pass liao sku dismiss time oso still talking.
make me miss my bus!!>.<
if i didnt meet dao my fren i maybe have to wait until evening only can go home leh!!
how i rest?
nan dao i miss liao bus u will fetch me home?
and not only i missed my bus lo.
so many ppl..u wanna fetch us all back ke??
and...we really dun like ur way of teaching la!!like very sui bian!!erghh!!!

发泄完毕.继续另一件事.
刚刚才发现到我哥哥的blog.
充满了他爱的烦恼..
其实他蛮可怜的..
从来他爱情的路线都充满绊脚石..
难道他被注定要酱吗?还是时候没到而已?
希望是后者啦..
不然就让他的问题解决掉..就可以继续和女朋友一起开开心心过生活了..
可怜的哥哥..
希望我以后不会遇到这样的东西..

另一个就是班上的两个好友的男朋友出国读书了..
看到她们都好伤心..
我知道如果是我我会更惨.
我以后..........
不想去想..下次吧.

Band Camp (March 2009)

2009-03-18T22:34:00.006+08:00

One word to describe overall--memorable.

haha.quite syok this camp.
very happy cos feel closer with many ppl,both juniors and seniors.
haha.my junior(yee min) jao cham la.let me bully..
this call training okay?
hahaha.and used 贱招 make her sleep.very berkesan!
cos she keep talking with alixia.
so i sit in front of them.
den after i leave very quietly they tot i still there so dun dare talk.
den at last fall asleep le!!
wahahaha..
and vivian actually manja with me.i was like O.O
haha.vivian and yee min ar.
ntg oso let me say dao got thing.
and that yee min so fa sum.vivian,alixia and another i forgot who liao.
aihs.really....

hmm.the hall so very the cold.every night oso wake up.
den last night when i wake eunice up to go toilet..
she look at me and ask me "you wanna play song?warm up de?"
hahaha.so funny la.2.30am play song.mei sei guo meh?
hahaha.

this camp got happy got sad got angry.
but really very miss it.
haha.i actually dun wan the last day to end wo.
hahaha..so unlike me.

aiya.ding mm shun angel claudia and wei kei so yeng >.<
hahahaha..
hope next camp will be at least like this one.haha!!

Miss My Sis...T_T

2009-03-10T21:39:00.004+08:00

Sis went to stay in Seremban liao....
cos she going to work in KL..

sis go liao =
1)no one hang/collect/fold clothes liao.
-more housework for me!!
2)no one teman me at home.
-house always empty when i get back..and i always home alone..T_T
3)no one cook pasta for me liao.
-miss jie de pasta!!
4)no one wake me up liao.
-i always oversleep now..
5)less one ppl to go eat and gai gai with liao.
-wuwu...
6)less one ppl to laugh with liao.
-sis de laugh memang...walao..
7)no one make silly faces to me liao.
-LOL..

cant think of others now..
BUT..
i really damned miss u la sis!!!

烦..really think til...Permanent Head Damage

2009-03-08T22:38:00.004+08:00

If i choose biotechnology have to study til PhD??
7 years??
foreign country???
nah..i dun mind..as long as dun get (P)ermanent (H)ead (D)amage.
and also..the money la..
fees for 7years..cannot mafan family for so long..
hmm..how??
and..the only other thing i'm worried about..
is him.
maybe go singapore ler.not too far from malaysia.
aihs.she bu de u!!
and.will worry de ma.so far..haihs..
你善变的性格真让我担心!!

but..what to do??i dun have any other passion...
I LOVE GENETICS!

3月5日的事情,心情笔记与问题

2009-03-05T20:54:00.007+08:00

今天想了好多东西..
因为太多了,所以不知要从哪里开始.....

我把这个blog的layout换回了..
因为不太满意classic的没得在post上留comment..
这样不就没有意义了..
我就是喜欢看别人给我的意见与看法吗..

今天上体育节打篮球时刮伤了脚..T_T
痛!!睡午觉时得把脚抬高以避免我压到..
冲凉时也要不让它淋湿..但,结果还是湿了.又是一阵的痛..呜呜..

不过,今天也算过得不错吧..
放学后见到了我朝思暮想的人.哈哈!!
好久没被你拥抱了..
所以,我才在你临离开前一直:"我要抱抱.."
因为我知道,我不说的话,一定会后悔,直到我再见到你.....
我不提出的话你也不会做的对吧?你就是这么的不主动>.<
由于怕被人见到,所以抱了一下就放开了..
虽然我还贪心地想要更多,但那大约一秒的拥抱足以让我怀念到现在..
你的怀抱真舒服呀!^_^
人,毕竟都比较珍惜得来不易的东西..

之后,我有得和我的"家人"一家团聚.
哈哈..不错吗,平时木得不成人样的DADDY今天比较多话说了呢..XD
我们几个在学校附近的教堂外谈得不亦乐呼..=]
再过后,就陪慧慈到一个"禁区"..
因为我其实是不被允许到那里的...
没有得到同意吗!唉..

我姐要到KL做工去了..
突然觉得时间过得真快..
不久后,就会轮到哥哥,过后我去做工了..
思想不成熟的我还不肯接受事实,想要一直留在中学时代,永远不要长大..
哈哈..算吧,总有一天我还是要面对事实的..

刚刚上网时,看到自己MSN里PM所写的东西..
(☑Sad--feeling left out..lonely..is it my own fault???)
想了很多..
我发现,我认识的人很多,但真正要好的朋友才有那小猫两三只..
上次ONLINE时那么多人在线上,竟然没有一个找我聊天..
我和大家的关系真的这么差吗?
我知道我忽略了很多朋友,但是那并不是我想要的啊..
朋友越多,集中在他们身上的注意力就越少.
可能我在认识一个新朋友的当儿,把一位旧朋友的关怀和注意力都给了他/她..
也可能,我把对大家的关怀与注意力更加分散了..
所以才会惹来他们的不满吧..
我到底应该怎么做吗?

P/S:又有多一对情侣诞生了哦!!是半上的一为同学..真让人以外..因为她虽然外表看起来有点"男",但个性像个小女生..为什么会有女朋友了呢??不过当然还是会祝福她们啦..^^

PP/S:我把我的blog搞得五颜六色了啦!!!我也不知道为什么..啊~!

EXAM PERIOD

2009-03-04T15:19:00.002+08:00

Day Before Exam
yii?why so relax geh??
sejarah very fast jao finish study liao..
wuahahaha..

1st Day of Exam
everyone still studying wo.
i just walk here walk there..look here look there..
haih..
at night..
should study for chemie and bio de..
but..
after eat dinner jao sit in front of the comp.
sit har sit har..10pm liao?!!
cannot..go study..
go to room..open chemie book..read a few lines..
haih..siennya~!!take my phone and take photo.
aiyah...study la!!!
(i hate like this de me..cannot control myself de!!must try harder to change!!)
study..study...12am lo....yea!finish!sleep..zzz...

2nd Day of Exam
my head feel like there's a big rock inside.
so heavy!!and everything i read is stuffed into a big heavy lump.
dunno what is what..zz...

exam..exam...

wah!finish at last!feel very free liao.hahaha!!
at night.come back from tuition.sit in front of comp again.
(tmd la!)and then only go study physics and add maths.
haih.good thing not much to read..

3rd Day of Exam
everyone keep ask me:"cut liao hair ar??"
hahahaha........
finish exam lo!!hurray!!!
(dun forget still got many exams after this la..doink!)

♥情侣一对对♥

2009-02-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

我发现..2009年出现了许多对情侣咧..
一开始,就是团体里的"她"和"她"..
过后就是班上的"她"和那个"他"..
(本来是母子关系..竟然变成情侣..哈哈..想到以前我的男朋友也曾是我的干哥..)
再来就是巴士的"她"和"他"..
真多吔..祝福你们哦!!^_^

我有个好朋友对我说,
她想趁还在中学的最后一年内好好地拍一场拖..
呵呵..这位性格,学业都不错的美女..
真觉得奇怪还没有人追..
XD
希望你会早日实现这个愿望咯!!

发现令我意外的事

2009-02-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

今天终于确认了我想知道的事..
我的分析能力也太好了吧..竟然猜到对了..
哈哈..自恋是我的本性!!xp
以后要当科学家的人..分析能力不好怎么行啊?
哈哈哈...

真的太以外了啦...
竟然有发生着这种事...
你们...
我还有点不相信..
不过事实就摆在了眼前..
你们怎么会是酱的啊?
不是说我反对这种事..
毕竟我有别的朋友也是酱..
但是..你们都不像是这种人啊...
太难以置信了啦!!

我也不知道为什么..
发现了这件事之后我就不停地在想..
明明就不关我的事吗...
干么满脑都是啊?
停啦停啦..李贝茹,不要再八了啦!!
(忍受不住,所以写部落格发泄..希望我会停止再八了!)

16/2

2009-02-16T21:02:00.000+08:00

today installation ar.
wahsei.dunno why the tweety bird dun let us sit down.
damn tired u noe?
just because u like to stand....
ms foong di sana pula..dunno is giving speech or ceramah..
so freaking long..aiyo..
and then i heard something she said.
and i suddenly feel like saying to tweety bird:''Excuse me,do u mind not scold everytime u open ur mouth?Can u stop insulting us?If u dun respect us,then i'm afraid i cant bring myself to respect u.''
haha.of course i wouldnt dare to say in front of her la.
later will kena more than just scolding.
(dun scold so much la.i think that's why u very fast old.aihs.must love ur skin u noe??)
everyone oso geram her.ke lian...

after installation din go back to class at all.
after eat straight go prac.
about 12.15 only go back to class.
missed Bio lessons.T_T

and then.practice again.
my juniors men..
hope u all seng ding d la.
work harder.
u all can do it de!!

walau.very long din feel as tired as today liao.
really have to drag myself everywhere.
at last~my wonderful bed..
hahaha.sis had to shout to wake me up.(as usual actually.lol.)
tml got rehearsal again le.wuwu~~

Valentine's Day =)

2009-02-16T20:42:00.000+08:00

Have to go sku on Valentine's Day?!!!
what the??
haha.okay okay la.can sot a bit with my classmates.
LOL.

yea.going to Nan Hwa band concert today.
7.20pm yian theng come and fetch me to kar mun's house.
that gal 7.05 only wake up.
so when we reach she still eating her rice.
and then wei hua oso come liao.
late lo kar mun~~
then..my 2 form2 juniors call me one by one to ask me where's the place.
swt.i oso dunno lar...
at last kar mun brought her plate into the car to eat.
hahaha.
we 8.05 only reach ar.
late liao.shi yi say must run three rounds only can go in.
hahaha.funny shi yi.
T_T sit at second last row.
but it's still a very good performance la.
bu kui is nan hwa.haha.

yea~my dear got go oso.
haha.gave him present.
and lepak a bit with him when break.
and keep taking pics.
take..yii?why blur de??
take again..yii?still blur??!
take..take..take..
take liao many many..
hahaha..

saw many frenz ah that day.
very happy.take pics with all of them.
first is ke min jie,sean and jian wei.
and then dunno who..she just said 'hi.' i dunno who she is leh..
and then 'i add u in friendster.'ohh?still dunno.really xiang noe is who..
den is yu kee from st xavier,penang.
and then is lenglui min xin from nan hwa.
and then is jenson oso from nan hwa.
and then saw choon wing kor,boon kang and boon jie didi.
aiya.din take dao pic with boon jie.
haiyo~
cos kar mun fetching me home again.
her dad come liao.T_T

reach home lu.
at night dear call me.
i think he quite touched with the present.
cos he say''你做么要弄到我想哭的?''
and then''谢谢你老婆!''
haha.he asked me if i got regret being with him.
sha sha de laogong.of course not la.
haha.lurv u~!!^_^

it's a happy valentine's day.=]

Moody Saturday

2009-02-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

why moody?
i oso dunno really..
just very very moody..
tired?disappointed?hurt??
no idea at all..

today committee list come out lu.
everyone oso unprepared.
so sudden..haha..
and then pn teh announce the names..
took her so long to get to the first name..
hahaha.everyone oso pengsan when she say
"the band leader is.........u all must cooperate with her..''
hahaha.
i really useless.
first day become sl jao late reach sectional.
aihs.really bu ying gai..
okay la.i must try my best to improve clarinet section.
a bit hard.but i must make sure i can see more improvements in this period of me being sl.
hahaha.dunno why got this feeling.must try my best.
although i always like play play gam.teach until half jao started being lazy and play around.
hmm.must change liao.big liao lo.got responsibility liao.

hmmm.just now viewed a someone's blog.
is she acting??most ppl dun like her.
but.is everyone wrong about her?
maybe...i should try to accept her.try to like her.cooperate more with her.
maybe i'm wrong.
maybe she's really acting for ppl to see.
but i wun noe the real answer.
haha.

a bit worried about my dear.
he say his back bengkak liao wo.
and say it hurts a lot.
hmmmm...
hope u get well soon o..

sean didi oso sick jor.
tell him go rest early but he say dun wan.
wan watch tv wo =.=
noty didi.get well soon oso la!
bubu..

Angel..
wanna let u noe we all support u o..
stay strong girl!!
haha.frenz forever!!

我的运动细胞都死完了吗??T_T

2009-02-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

怎么搞的..
今天做么赛跑,跳远和跳高都不行啊??
真是失败!!!
明明以前都可以做得好好的啊..
呜呜..
这次的sukantara 跑100米竟然拿0 分?!
我之前都是那1分的啊..
妈的..我放学后sukan 练习明明就18秒而已吗..可以拿1分的啊!!
都是你啦,草场..那么湿干么啊?!!
连我第一次跳高时都因摔了一跤而跳不过..
虽然我第二次也是跳不过..哈哈..
上体育课时练习跳远也是一直踏过板..
唉...我的体育几时变得那么差了啊?(虽然本来也不是很好,但至少还看得过眼吧!!)
好伤心喔~!!

好吔,今天又看到我的宝贝了.
虽然不是很久,但也算很开心啊..
他拿了一叠的笑话给我看..
看到我笑个不停..哈哈..
我笑得很可爱??呃.....
^_^

30/1/2009

2009-01-31T00:18:00.000+08:00

Today wake up at 10am..
cos ytd sleep at 1am..
ben lai wanna wake at 9am geh..haha..
today is mei yan and kai xin de birthday o..
happy birthday to u 2 leh!!
1something go Jusco meet with sum,xin ying,yue li and kai xin lo..
kei kei and ah moke put us aeroplane!!hng!!
anyway we had fun oso la..
yee sum de mr lc and his frenz oso there..
but din walk with us..
so we 5 gals go and take pictures and eat pizza.
yum!!long time din eat pizza liao..

hmm.very miss my dear.went kl liao wo.bubu!!T_T
and den he suddenly called when we 'da gei'-ing at capcom.
so surprised leh!!haha..miss u..
suddenly found out i'm actually not bad at the basketball and shooting machine.
HAHAHA.

RM40 bo liao..
my sis la..
wanna but that 'Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni' dvd..
wan me pay half only let me watch..
but at last i oso pay rm40 only.
whole price rm139 leh!!>.<
most of my angpau money 'fly away' liao..
wuwu~~come back~~~
it's okay la.that movie not bad ma^^

My 'artwork'.hahaha...

2009-01-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

drawn by Lee Bei Ru.cute anot??hahaha..
i found that everything i draw is either cute or ugly..
not 'wan neng' like Angel la..
got yeng,cute,beautiful,soulful....
hahaha...
actually is see b4 kenji draw something like this..
den bm teacher say wat head and legs big,body small(she's referring to karangan actually)..i remembered this den jao draw on xin ying's book lo..
haha...actually dun quite look like us la..
only the hair..
1st pic-1st is xin ying,2nd is pui kei and 3rd is hui guo.
2nd pic-1st is me..2nd is yee wen(quite alike),and 3rd is yee sum(quite not alike xp)..

2nd part de..
1st is xin ying(okay okay la.got a bit alike)
2nd is pui kei(oso got alike la...)
2nd is hui guo(sorry er.dun look alike de.bubu.)

sien sien dei draw de..hahaha..

Prediction came true

2009-01-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

This new year is just as i've expected.
sad..lonely..sien.....
just like i knew,he din find me much ler.

25th Jan
ben lai wanna sleep when reached grandparent's house de..
but den went to watch tv with cousins they all..
at car cannot sleep leh.cos my mum kept nudging me by accident when i jiu kuai fall asleep.
aihs..tired day.
eat tuan yuan fan..
no angpau er.cos my grandpa just passed away..
hmm..nvm lo.bubu..
that night i really very tired.but i din sleep early..
cos i wanna wish him ''Happy Chinese New Year''..
i wait til i wished him only i sleep.

26th Jan
he sent me a total of 4 msgs..
i not so happy la...
at night cried le..
den when he call..he oso heard.
but all he say is ''Sorry.Please don't cry.''

27th Jan
he already noe i'm not happy ler..
but..
this day he only sent me 2msgs.
in the 2nd msg he said ''I noe u angry me liao..''
i wanna tell him..
''我对你，从来都没有「生气」这两个字。。有的只是「失望」。。''
bcos i very very lonely,i jao find my kai gor bryan chat lo..
chat liao a while..
he's very very good..always there when i need him..
haha..thanks bro!!
at night bf call again..
i told him..
he ask me how many times i wan him to find me..
he ask me to set how many msgs he had to send me..
i tell him if i set than it would be meaningless...
he said 'okay.'

28th Jan
this day many ppl birthday leh..
chee choong kor,shwu hwa mui and hua lung..
i dun have shwu hwa de number,so cannot wish her la..
i ask angel she oso dun have leh..
hahaha.
den i wish kor and hua lung.only hua lung reply lo..
hmmm..
he sent me 6msgs today leh..
it's good gua..
when he call me..he ask me if i'm still disappointed in him..
i ask him why he only will find me when i'm upset with him..
if i'm okay den he wun so gan jeong..
he say 'u noe i'm like this de la..'
what i wanna ask him is ''should i be unhappy with u all the time just so i can have ur attention?''
but i dun wan like this..
dilemma..haihs..
hahaha..

29th Jan
today come back home in ipoh lo..
the past few nights can only whisper when he call.
cos my dad,mum,sis and me sleeping in the same room..
today can talk normally lo..
haha..
but tml yao cant lo..
cos he going kl..aiks...

very miss playing 'chor dai di' with my cousins..
hahaha...

王力宏－心跳

2009-01-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

想跟我吵架我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点

你又在哭泣我给不了安慰
我又在摇头有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走

但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒　　　
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

i LOVE this song!!

First blog in blogspot

2009-01-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

Yeah..
1st blog here..
actually i've written in myspace blog b4..
today when reply Angel's comment den sun bian go and view her blog..
den suddenly feel like creating an account here..
hahaha..

actually today not so good mood geh..
say liao i very emo de lar..
aihs..

tml go kajang lo..
cannot chat with him at night..
wuwuwu...
i dun und..why he treat me like that..
like i'm not something important to him..
maybe...i'm not??
i'm not sure of anything anymore..
sad chinese new year..
it's like last year all over again..